Dream a Little DreamMy grandmother always said, you cannot choose between life or death while sleeping. When you are sleeping, your body practically doesnt belong to you. Its almost as though you have no control over anything that might happen to you in your dreams, especially if it is something dangerous. When I ask people why this happens, they theorize that a powerful force or being has entrapped your body. You could end up dying in your dreams, thus leading to your death or illness in reality.
Its possible for someone to suffer a heart attack from what they dreamt, depending on how frightening the situation was. Ive heard of people going to bed one night and, the next morning, waking up not remembering who they are or actually becoming insane. It is with these mysterious beliefs that one becomes afraid to dream anymore. I had never actually experienced a life and death situation while sleeping, at least not until recently.
It was in early November of 2001, if I remember correctly, on a Thursday night, when I was just closing my eyes to enjoy a nice peaceful sleep. I could feel myself floating almost like someone was taking me from my room. I couldnt feel anything, since I was literally out cold. Suddenly, I was awake with my eyes closed and my body unmoved.
I tried to open my eyes, but they could not open, I tried to move my body, but I would not stir. My efforts were futile; I eventually tried harder and this time I was awake. I went to sleep and it happened again. I felt myself being literally chained to my bed or, better stated, buried in a rich mixture of concrete. All my bones, veins, limbs and the rest of my body parts were frozen. I couldnt believe the fact that I wasnt capable of moving, almost as though I was paralyzed.
I started to wonder if I was in a coma or if I had one of those major diseases, such as strokes, which could not be cured. This would be a terrible way to grow up not being able to live a normal life. Think of the laughs that I would miss all because I couldnt move. I would be frozen in time watching everyone around me doing things I once did.
It suddenly struck me that what if I wasnt ill, what if someone or something had taken control of me. I was now between life and death, which I had once feared, would determine my future. Now I was afraid, afraid that I would die in my sleep. I had lost control over my entire body all because some strange being had taken it away from me. I could actually picture him going from body to body, sucking all the nutrients away.
What confused me though, out of all the bodies, why had he chosen me? I had to do something; I needed to regain my consciousness at any cost. So, I tried until I was finally awake from that captivation. This time I tried not to sleep again, however I was too tired and so, fell asleep luckily with no interruptions. This uncanny situation made me very afraid. The fact that it happened twice that night made me feel even more intimidated.
I could still remember waking; thinking that someone else was in the room. It was invisible, only detectable by impulse. I could feel his presence as he drugged me, waiting for me to fall into a deep trance. As I inhaled and exhaled, there he was counting each breath of air. I knew he was still there, even after I regained control over my body.
The strange thing was he didnt make an effort to over power me again. The twisted and tormented movies I loved to watch had finally caught up with me. The most frightful thing about the situation was the fact that I had seen things like this only in movies. I never thought I would actually experience such a strangesituation right in my very bedroom. It wasnt like I was watching a horror film or witnessed a brutal incident, but it just took place making me feel terrified plus unsafe to even dream or watch television anymore.
I fear that it will take place again and this time something bad will really happen to me. I was the winner; this strange being that had control over me had now lost. He was man enough to accept his defeat and so, left me to continue my journey to where ever life is willing to take me. I am only twenty years-old; I wasnt ready to leave this world. At least not until I had experienced the fulfillment lifes hands has encompassed for me. I am free, free to enjoy Christmas and all other holidays in the future.
On the other hand, I am still open to melancholy and deviation, which the world possesses. Its then acceptable to say that I was literally reincarnated to make the right choices with life. I had to ponder on the thought that if I hadnt resisted, I might not be alive. Its a scary thought and emotion. What would happen if I had crossed over to the other side, death with no life after, according to some scientists and philosophers? On the other hand, would I have made it to heaven or hell as described by religious believers? The answer to that is not easy to define.
I never reached that stage and I can only hope and pray that I will never reach there until the right time.Words/ Pages : 936 / 24